Where did my friends go?
I'm getting into that chapter in my life where loneliness creeps in. I'm the old guy now. I dabble on social media but have lost all my connections. I have conversations with digital beings hoping they are real.
My young teenage self could never imagine this world. I had many friends throughout my lifetime but where are they now? I can't even name one person as a friend today. Watching YouTube videos makes me think I'm not the only one living alone.
The scary part is wondering if this is it? Is the rest of my life going to be living by a keyboard as my only connection to the world? Maybe I should be happy because the world outside is not good.
My friends married and had children. They had lives like our parents. But I didn't get that opportunity in life. I continued working and building a life alone. I dream at times how it would be having my own children. But I don't think much about it to be honest.
Where do men my age go now to be social without appearing like the creepy old guy? Where do we go shopping for clothes? Where are my friends who would help me with this?
The other day I went shopping for shirts and XS and XXL were the only sizes. What is going on now? Do people just shop online and hope their clothes fit? I dread having to go to a mall to return a shirt. I may as go and buy it there in the first place and get it over with.
During the start of the pandemic I completely lost connection with the friends I had left. Their families had much stress and our friendships never survived. I tried but it was one sided and as someone with no children, these people did not respect my time or me as a person.
Some other friends were good at certain chapters of my life and they have too much drama if I let them in now. I'm at a peaceful chapter in my life and have no patience for dumb people and their bullshit. Those people are better left in the past.
I miss my friends but perhaps I miss who they were at the time. Maybe I wouldn't like them today and who they became. We live in a world where everyone has an opinion and shares it freely with no consequences. Society gives too much airtime to these people and here we are now in a world that is falling apart with stupidity. At least in the digital world, I can mute and block those individuals much easier than in real life.
Thanks for reading and until tomorrow, have a good evening.